In the tapestry of our love story, 2003 marked a poignant chapter as Daniel and I rekindled the flame that had flickered out in 2002. The backdrop was set during our sojourn in Australia, where we pursued our passions in football at the Gay Olympics. However, the call to venture together was met with hesitance from Daniel, who believed our paths were veering in different directions. A painful decision to part ways ensued, fueled by his plans to visit Hong Kong and explore a connection with someone else.
Amidst the heartache, I knew that clinging to the past would only breed despair. Before embarking on my journey, I decided to immortalize our shared memories in a CD, a musical capsule of our time together. One particular song, "Whole Again" by Atomic Kitten, with its soul-stirring chorus, encapsulated the essence of our love: "Looking back on when we first met, I cannot escape, and I cannot forget. Baby, you're the one; you still turn me on, You can make me whole again." Separated by distance, whispers of Daniel's endeavors reached my ears. I attempted to reach out through emails, only to be met with the revelation of his newfound happiness with someone else. Despite the heartbreak, I chose to forge ahead, convinced that destiny had a plan for each of us. Then came a moment of unexpected vulnerability. An email from Daniel, urgently seeking a conversation, reignited the embers of our connection. Though guarded by the fear of renewed pain, my heart yearned to listen. His voice, tinged with brokenness, confessed the colossal mistake of letting me go. The façade of contentment shattered, revealing a soul tormented by the absence of our shared existence. With caution and a lingering love, we embarked on a month of long-distance calls. Yet, my intuition whispered louder than any reservations, urging me to take the leap. I set forth a condition to test the sincerity of his intentions: to traverse the vast expanse to Australia and stand before me, a gesture that would signify the depth of his love. Underneath the enchanting Sydney Opera House, on the eve of a new year, our reunion unfolded—a resplendent beginning to the next chapter of our romantic odyssey. From there, our love story traversed continents, from the picturesque landscapes of New Zealand to the vibrant cities of the USA, and back to the charming embrace of the UK. Tragically, fate dealt its cruel hand. In the tender months that followed, Daniel was diagnosed with lung cancer. The echoes of "Whole Again" lingered as a poignant refrain in the backdrop of our love—a melody that symbolized the resilience of our connection, always capable of mending the fractures and making us whole again. The success of discipline can be measured in several ways, depending on the context and the individual's goals. Here are a few potential ways to define success in discipline:
Achieving specific goals: Discipline can help people achieve their goals by creating consistent habits and behaviors that support their objectives. Success in discipline could be measured by whether the individual has reached their goals, whether they were able to sustain those achievements over time, and whether they felt satisfied with the outcome. Improved self-control: Discipline can help people develop greater self-control, which can have a positive impact on various aspects of their lives. Success in discipline could be measured by how well an individual is able to resist temptation or delay gratification, whether they are better able to regulate their emotions, and whether they are able to stay focused on their priorities. Improved well-being: Discipline can also contribute to greater well-being by helping people engage in healthy behaviors and avoid harmful ones. Success in discipline could be measured by improvements in physical health, mental health, relationships, and overall life satisfaction. Ultimately, the success of discipline will depend on what the individual hopes to achieve and what metrics they use to measure their progress. It's important to recognize that discipline is a process, and success may not come overnight. However, with consistent effort and dedication, people can cultivate greater discipline and achieve their goals.
Since I came to Florida, I felt the lack of discipline and I have been trying to understand why. What was the motivation that made me feel more in control of my life over there in the UK than here in the USA. So If I am not applying my discipline, what am I doing? Maybe my thoughts of being in Florida were holidays, rest, taking a break and that is maybe the key. Maybe I was too mould to a work style living and now that I have the freedom of not working I felt there is a lack of responsibility there, therefore some kind of discipline I was manufacturing while I was on the workforce. The distinction between discipline being an external dynamic or an internal dynamic, a mandatory rule or a personal choice, is important. Understanding this at a deeper level is your gateway into a better, more discipline-driven life. |
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